Well, here I go! This isn't my first time blogging. I had another blog for over 5 years over on Xanga, but that has gone by the wayside in the past year. I really love journaling. Actually, I love being able to look back on past events in our life--I don't necessarily love taking
the time to sit down and document them all! I do want to keep track of our homeschooling efforts, so I hope to keep this a constant place for me to do that. A few months ago, I posted on my old blog the 'story' of us coming to the realization that I was going to quit my public school teaching job to stay home with our boys. Here is a copy of that post (Sept 13, 2010)....
I'M GOING TO BE A STAY AT HOME MOM!!!
Exciting, huh? It IS for me!! This is my last year of working. Josh and I have always talked about me staying home, but its just never worked out financially. As Jonathan gets closer and closer to going to Kindergarten, the issues that we've been avoiding are slowly starting to become a problem. I won't go into great detail, but childcare is big issue. J and Max go to a great babysitter, but she is not near where he will have to attend school. So we would have to find a different sitter for the boys (since Jonathan would need after school care). That stresses me out. Plus, I don't know a whole lot about our school district. I hear good things, but I don't know a lot. Since I'm a teacher, in a different district, I really would NEVER have the chance to participate in his education. I could never be a room mom or help at parties (because those SAME parties will be going on in my classroom!) and that just makes me sad. I want to be involved in the PTA, I want to know who his friends are (and their families), I want to be "that mom" who picks him up from school, and I want to be home with Max, cooking dinner, and keeping a somewhat clean house.
Don't get me wrong, I LOVE teaching, but I also have a strong desire to be home with my children. I've always felt torn about that. I think that since me working was really a 'must' for us, God has always given me a 'desire' to teach. Now that I'll be staying home, I'm so excited and not even looking back! We are having to make huge sacrifices to make this possible. We have NEVER been a one-income family so this is going to mean big adjustments in our budget. We're already living on just Josh's income to help us get used to it, and it is NOT EASY!!! But we both know that this is exactly what I'm supposed to do, so we are bound and determined to make it
work.
There's more to this story though - About 6 months ago when Josh and I first started discussing the possibility of me staying home next year, he told me not to get all excited about it yet, because there were still some financial 'kinks' that he needed to work through, but of course - impatient me- did exactly that. I got my hopes and dreams all set on the fact that I had ONE more year of teaching! I was actually registered to take another Master's class this summer, but Josh told me to drop it since it looked like I would be able to quit, and there's no sense in me spending all that money on a class that really wasn't going to do me any good.
As the summer went on, I began to get this nagging feeling. Just something in the pit of my stomach that felt like something was missing. I was so excited at the thought of being a SAHM, but for some reason I was not completely satisfied. At first I couldn't pinpoint it, but when I found myself doing internet searches on Home Schooling, I began to figure out what was going on. The Holy Spirit was convicting me.
I'm not going to deny it - I fought it. I really did. I gave myself and God every excuse for why I should NOT homeschool. I *knew* homeschoolers growing up, and they were WEIRD. They were sheltered, and dressed strange, and didn't know what a curling iron was. It wasn't until I met Josh in college that I found out that homeschooling didn't mean you had to be weird. JOSH was homeschooled!!!! Okay, so he may be a little weird, but for the most part he doesn't fit the typical 'home-schooler stereotype'.
I will say that in terms of schooling our children, 'homeschooling' has always been an option for us. But that's all its been in my mind, an OPTION. I don't think I ever really believed that we would do it. I figured we'd send our kids to a private school or possibly a 'good' public school. Well, we are not impressed with any of the private schools here and while public school still was an 'option' for us, I just got to thinking.....Why would I want to have some stranger teach my children, when I know I can do it? Why would I want to put my 5-year old in a classroom with 20+ other kids and just 'hope' that he will get the learning experiences that he needs? Why would I want other kids to introduce things to my child that I would NEVER want him to hear or learn about (or at least wanted to tell him myself)?
I'm not going to say that I battled this decision all summer. I did not. Even though I questioned it, I KNEW pretty quickly that this is what we were going to do. Especially after I mentioned it to Josh and he quickly said that he was ALL FOR IT!! He just never wanted to pressure me about it because ultimately I will be the one doing all of the work! What a sweet guy. But he was thrilled when I told him I was considering it. After that I pretty much knew it was a done deal. I began researching different curriculum options and what style I was wanting to go with. I still have a STACK of books on my nightstand to read. I'm literally swimming in homeschooling resources. I love it though and I get more excited every DAY about the thought of raising our children in the admonition of the Lord and teaching them the things that they TRULY need to know to be successful, God-fearing men!
I wrote that several months ago, but I'm thrilled now to say that last week I "officially" resigned from my Kindergarten position at school. I'll miss the wonderful people I worked with there, but I am head-over-heels excited about staying home full-time!
I've been immersing myself in curriculum for this next year. I knew going into this, that I did not want to push much next year. It's Jonathan's "kindergarten" year, but I really want it to be a FUN year for him as his first year at home. We will have PLENTY of time for learning, but I'm not going to sit and drill facts into his head all day. I've learned Jonathan's learning style already, so as I have been browsing curriculum, it doesn't take long for me to scrap it or save it. Jonathan LOATHES worksheets. He's an active learner. He LOVES books, but he also loves his Nintendo Wii =). He would rather sit and stare at the wall than be forced to color in a coloring book. He LOVES numbers. He is going to soar in math. He's going to hate 'handwriting'. I *think* he's going to be a quick reader (he has some good early reading skills already), but the trick will be getting him to CHOOSE to read.
Anyway, with that said...I have chosen the
Five in a Row curriculum for our main study. I'm a Unit Study girl, so this appealed to me immediately. I love the great books they use, and the activities are endless. It seems to be very history/geography based- which is great.
I hesitated to get any sort of Math curriculum yet, but my gut says I should. Jonathan is ready for it. I'm considering
Math U See.
Still trying to decide my reading strategy. I picked up a
Phonics Pathways book, but I'm not completely sold on it yet. No reading/phonics program has really stuck out at me. I keep going back to the good ol'
Charolette Mason method of reading...
WOW! My first post was pretty lengthy! =)